I ended my life because of trading

At the beginning of last year everything was going well, I was studying trading and had 100% winnings in all of them. Then my girlfriend decided to lend me $25k to make more money for us, I don't know what happened to me at the beginning but I started losing some parts uncontrollably until I had zeroed everything, I have bipolar disorder and I think that directly affected me. So I told her what happened and she had a kind of psychotic break, so with what was left she gave me the challenge of recovering everything in a small fraction of time, I even managed to get part of it, but again I lost everything. This time I didn't tell her... Until I had an accident, I broke my leg in August but I didn't tell her at any time that I lost all of our money. I've been stringing her along ever since. I got a client to try to get her money back and I lost it too, now I'm on a tightrope because I know that if I tell her now that I lost two people's money she'll break up with me and I'm not ready for that. I really just want her money back and to stop trading once and for all, to go back to who I was before, but I'm at a dead end because I have no way to get money in a small fraction of time, I have nothing left to sell.