I can never be on time

I mean, COVID ruined my whole schedule and sleep. I didn't even go to school this year because it ends when I only wake up (I'm on the last grade). Feels like I have nothing to wake up for (even though I believe there is something I still didn't find). Even thinking about being on time frightens me out of panic. I feel so much shame. I usually don't go outside because of shame, and because I only finish my getting up routine when the day ends, and at nights it's cold. What could improve this situation?