really losing motivation in life

i’m a deep NEET aka i’ve never been employed, i’ve been volunteering so far, and i’m looking for more volunteer opportunities to fill up my resume, been looking for part time work, trying to get my drivers license, been trying to keep my brain busy by doing my creative hobbies but it’s hard to not fall into a doomscrolling rut. Everyday is like agony knowing i cannot do anything to reach my goals due to my circumstances, I wanna travel overseas and i even started learning another language to keep the dream alive, but i’m already losing motivation bc it feels like there’s no end to this monotony. I literally don’t know what else to do. It’s so hard to stay optimistic sometimes