Minor success story and hopefully the first step forward of many.

Sorry if this is a bit of a ramble. I'm extremely tired right now and have pretty limited writing skills at the best of times, but I wanted to share some good news as I don't really have anyone in my life to tell this to. I've been struggling forever with depression and anxiety and it's robbed me of so much time and joy. I'm 29, no job, no friends, no partner and last month, I was the closest I've been to taking my own life. Less than 30 days later and things are starting to look up a little. Got myself back on a diet. After well over a decade of knowing I needed therapy but refusing, I finally referred myself. I got a CV together. Volunteered with a charity. Got on welfare benefits so that I could use the resources available to try and seek employment and finally I attended my first ever interview today. The employment I've held previously I kind of just fell into, so this was a whole new experience for me. I don't know if I'll get the job but I believe I gave a good account of myself and learned so much in the process. It really might not seem a lot to most, and you'd probably be right, but I've realised that I can no longer compare myself to others. We all move at our own pace and it's taken a long time for me to finally realise that and to not use those "lost years" as an excuse to continue not to try. Still have a lot of work to do, my anxiety for example is just through the roof. I haven't slept more than 4 hours total in the last 4 days, in great part as a result of the intervie. I'm just tortured with an overactive mind even when I am totally exhausted. Insomnia is something I've battled for much of my life and something I absolutely need to get under control if I'm going to continue to move forward. That being said, I'm happier than I've been in a long time and really optimistic about my future which is not something I thought I would ever be saying again.