life is great 12 inches in

a sudden realization of feeling out of place around people, the presence I give off seems more crusty and dingy compared to the people around me. That I begin to resent my surroundings, same reason why I dropped out of school. I hated people around me even though they were nice as far as I could tell. Now I rot in my room marinating in my own unfulfilled restless ambitions as I try to fulfill them. But it gets mentally draining to do anything. Body dysmorphia is settling in which is nice to add more on my shoulders.