Its not worth it

It’s not worth it anymore. Maybe I’m just coping, but the more I think about it, the more it feels like getting a job is just some societal trap. I mean, how do you convince yourself that your entire purpose, the reason you exist, is to slave away for some money? It’s all just so hollow. Society makes sure you feel like absolute shit if you don’t participate in this endless grind. Somewhere along the line, we stopped putting faith in God or anything bigger than ourselves and replaced it with money, because it’s easier and more convenient. I’ve never been super eco conscious or anything, but it’s insane to me how we destroy our planet for cash, and we’re the only species that does this. It makes no sense, but here I am, playing along like everyone else. I think my only way out is to wage slave for a while, live way below my means, and then just NEET forever. Maybe I’ll even try to find some eco friendly job, so when I die and God or whatever asks me what I did to help stop this mess, at least I’ll have a slightly better answer than most. I don’t even fully believe in God, but I feel like someone’s keeping scor for the way we’ve been living, lol. There’s a bird sneezing next to me right now. Didn’t even know birds could sneeze. Pretty sure it’s also chatting shit about me to its friend.