Is it pointless going to shit colleges or universities when you have so many gap years?

Only dogshit unis will take me it’ll put me in student debt I just feel like unless I can get a high paying job (which is near impossible) I’ll have to live paycheck to paycheck and get burned out for so long but on the other hand I don’t want to be a shut in my entire life. None of it seems worth it tbh even if I can get a decent paying job what’s the point anyway? I’ll still be miserable and suicidal the only thing different would be I could bang hookers every now and then and I probably went off topic but whatever. Suicide not only seems easier but also the inevitable outcome.