i realized i don’t feel comfortable being myself at home

i am a happy person. but i don’t feel comfortable being happy because i disappointed my dad big time with career choices and my mom feels it’s immature to be happy (she’s depressed) okay i found a sub to poast this under and i hate to call this venting. i should be above that. ofc everyone’s gotta vent at some point but i would call this more like meditation i’m going to get income and then move to bulgaria so i can walk everywhere and be an adult