I feel like I am playing the demo version of life.

When I was young I could only get new games once in a while so instead I bought gaming magazines that came with demo discs and I would replay them even though they limited you to one area/character/items or had a time limit. I would read in magazines about new games I couldn't afford anytime soon or run on my PC. Now my life feels the same. Spending all the time in my room at the computer not exploring what life and the world has to offer and instead only learning about it from others.