I feel ashamed of being a neet tbh

Before I get downvotes to 6 feet in the ground. I wanna say how I feel about being neet and I ain’t try to shame anyone. It sucks when you have family and relatives with good careers and then there’s me aka failure of the family. It’s sucks I didn’t choose to be this way. I am too stupid to get a degree in school (I dropped out the first day). I can’t even get a fucking entry job. It’s over. Everyone my age is in college and university doing whatever da heck they are passionate about. I don’t feel passionate about anything in life if I am being honest. I fucking the money. I fucking despise that shit. Fuck money. It’s over. I don’t mind being neet if money was not a problem. I like the lifestyle but I need a job for money. My mom is nagging at me to find a job. Like bro I want one and it’s the employers don’t hire me.