I ended up quitting after two days.

I'm sorry everyone. I feel like a fucking failure. I thought I was better than this but clearly I'm too mentally fucked for anything. I am seriously looking back on everything to realize that success for me is all a fucking lie. Truth is, I have been a weirdo all my life, and I've been relentlessly picked on nearly my entire life one way or another, whether its school, a job, or being out in society. No one in my life truly fucking cares about me and it shows. Hell, i possibly just lost a friend because of my own selfish ass. Maybe I'm just having a psychotic episode again. Who fucking knows at this point? It's bad enough I'm schizo, what makes it worse is that I can't seem to get the support I need because I am denied it.