I died in 2017

That's the only way I can describe it tbh. 2017 is the year I graduated high school and I've been a neet ever since. Haven't had a genuine irl conversation with anyone besides my mom, have spent almost all of that time locked up inside, haven't worked, haven't gone to college, haven't learned to drive, have done literally nothing. It's like some weird fucking purgatory where I feel the exact same as I did a decade ago but my mind has deteriorated and my body visibly aged. At this point I don't think there's anything i can do. My social skills and just skills in general have always been pretty mediocre but after 8 years of doing nothing, even what little I had is gone. It's over.