i cant make any friends i cant get in any relationship that is worthy or any person who is worthy.

i think im gonna end it.. just giving it 5 years max to see what happens just for the sake of it... im really tired of everything... working school people blabbering when they cant even relate to my problems and my mental state.. clueless people in general with no understanding of how i function as a human being driven by selfish desire to destroy someone mentally. i have spent 6 hours today and nearly 9 hours yesterday trying to find friends/ relationship to which i havent been able to find anyone. Also i have been trying on and off the past 6 months for atleast 3 hours each day. most people i have talked to dont know how to talk or are emotionally dead and have normie beliefs. I'm really sick of this... does anyone relate