I am trying so hard and going no where

I have been working a shitty job for awhile now to save up money to hopefully find some way to get by when I am inevitably kicked out but nothing I do will ever be enough and I don't want to just run in circles forever and I won't be able to achieve neetdom again so my best option might be to just go buy a gun and give up before it gets even worse since its only downhill from here.