Got grilled with a bunch of questions about my work and employment status and it's been really bothering me so I need to vent.

I was laid off a couple years ago and haven't had stable employment since then. It's been hard. I've been trying my best but sometimes I got depressed. I was suicidal at one point. Nowadays I'm doing better and working hard to get a new job and I'm planning on going back to school as well. But yesterday a couple well meaning people at my church kept trying to talk to me even though I was just sitting alone minding my own business and they asked me like "what do you do for work" and "freelance?" and stuff like that. I don't think they meant to be mean, but it really bothered me and I have been upset about it ever since. I even had some crazy dreams where an angry guy was shooting a gun above my head. I think it's related. Anyway I just wanted to vent about this. That's all Edit: I think the emotions and thoughts I felt at the time went like this: She asked, "Freelance?" I thought, I want to be honest and humble. So I said, "I'm not working right now I'm applying to jobs and taking classes and stuff". To be honest I have some plans but I didn't want to defend myself. Then she just stopped talking to me and turned and talked to someone else. Then I felt extreme shame. I sat there as these young people talked to each other, seemingly scared of the dark mood that I brought upon the table. Even though I was sitting there first and they joined me, I felt I was ruining the mood for them. So I got up and left. I went outside for a bit and looked at the stars and breathed in the cold winter night air. It was nice but awkward as I didn't know how to go back inside. A few minutes later I went back inside and stayed until the end. Last night I was angry but just didn't entertain the anger. Did my work and evening duties and went to bed and had a crazy terrifying dream. It was all the emotions I felt exploding into a raging anger in my dream. This morning I woke up thinking about what happened and being angry. Wanting to tell them off, flip the table, attack them, anything. Because I felt shame. So it was that shame to anger pathway. I hope I can stay humble and low to the ground. It's only because I have pride that I think it's wrong to feel ashamed, wrong to be embarrassed, wrong to be asked questions like this. It is my oversized pride.