Feeling lonely again... all it takes is a little spark of reminder...

It's not fair, I'm not normal and I never will be, I have zero social contacts, I live on a dead end street with vacant houses, all I see are birds. Online no one wants to be my friend, all I have are these interactions with people I don't know on X posts, reddit, YouTube. • I hate how people complain about how they have no friends and are lonely but when you try to make friends they ghost you, it's like women who say no one wants to date them and when you ask them they don't want to. PEOPLE ARE TRASH. SCUM. You SHOULD BE GRATEFUL to have someone like me as friend, not isolate me at every opportunity, especially the younger ones, THEY CAN'T EVEN HOLD A CONVERSATION. * There's no point in working or doing the right thing, in the end it won't give me friends or a loyal girlfriend. I WISH I COULD HURT EVERYONE FOR WHAT THEY PUT ME THROUGH.