Developing Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms 😭

I feel like I’m the only one with this. Please be nice, I know I screwed up. I don’t know what I want but I need to get this off my chest. Being NEET for so long I started to really get into nsfw chats with people online. But now I just can’t stop. Every morning after waking up and even before going to sleep I make hornyposts and do nsfw chats with like minded people. This is the most interaction I have with people in my day. I’ve even made friends who get into this with me and in the moment it feels great but as soon as it’s over it’s a crash. I feel like this is the most unique and screwed up coping mechanism ever and I feel bad for indulging.