Chance

If my health improves then will try to go to work, if not then suicide. Neet from 2018, I can feel myself getting older, 25th birthday soon, all the people around me are moving forward and I have been standing still for years. I'm feral from social isolation, I have to put on a mask and pretend to be normal when I leave the house, very tiring. I have little hope that I will come out of this, but my biggest wish is to not exist, I would like to die, I am so tired and burnt out.