i ask someone out, have an anxiety attack and her friends switch teams

i met a girl(Ms. Alcohol) last year in December in one of our college fests. she's cute and sweet. shes isnt in my class , it was a merger of our divisions. back then she was coupled up with Mr.6ft.2 for a bollywood dance event (context: me and her are 5'2 and shes obsessed with Mr.6'2). i became good friends with her and her girlies (The girlies are a group of elite women, the better illuminati, so basically any girl's frnd circle) ---- some context abt me: i am a guy who's never sure abt anything. I am good at pretending to be confident. All my life couples and romantic partnership has been an enigma to me, it never made sense when i was a kid but as i grew up, i learnt the word 'intimacy'. also funfact, i discovered reddit coz i came across r/polyamory. i have liked ppl in the past but was never sure whether i wanted to ask them out or not, this overthinking worked as a great filter mechanism 9/10 times coz always those girls have turned out to be bad news except that one time back in 12th grade. i always regret not asking her out. even this time i wasnt sure if i like Ms.Alcohol or not, i am never sure. but i knew that shes a fun person and i would love to hangout with her thus my best case scenario was The date and the worst case was rejection, ik i can hang out with her as frnds but i dunno man. so i overthink and overthink. ----- back in august '24 , in one of our clg fests , i ask her a question. "do u think girls like the idea of THE LAST FIRST DATE " (ik she doesnt represent every girl on this planet but ya i got terrible game) her reply was positive and i think she got the vibe that i am gonna ask her out. i tell her what my plan is for the date (asking the girl out in december on the last day of the final clg fest of the year , going to Bandra). at this point i have told a frnd(Mr.Rum) of mine, who is dating one of the girlies, that i may ask someone out but i didnt reveal its Ms.Alcohol. so in november i went very incognito, didnt go to clg, went on this self-care journey. Participated in a clg fest of another clg in december. me and my frnds were so disappointed by that fest that we decide to ditch the prize distribution and go to watch the rerelease of 'Kal hona ho' . now this clg had the winner trophy of our clg fest, its a system of circulating trophies plz dont ask. so me and a frnd decide that we'll drop off this trophy back to our clg and leave for the movie with few of our frnds and Ms.Alcohol and a girlie. -------- We drop off the trophy and we are all set to go for the movie. Then ms.alcohol had conflicting thoughts of whether we should go the film or chill at Mr.Rum's place. so we decide with a toss that we'll go to Mr.Rum's place. we board a train and at a station Ms.Alcohol calls me and yells. "GET OFF THE TRAIN ASAP!!" we get off the train just to realize that now ms.Alcohol wants to see have wander Bandra. yes we are in Bandra. ---- We have momos and proceed to a beach. there are few stones ahead so we walk on them to get a closer view at waves. context: here i am leading the way with my formal shoes and these idiots can barely maintain their balance. While returning. its just me and Ms.Alcohol and our frnds are way ahead, they have basically reached the shore. --- i was abt to trip and she holds my hands. i am having a fucking anxiety attack, i didnt know i am able to have them, i start breathing heavily, my vision goes, i start my flashlight to use an anchor to distract myself funny but she asks: "hey dude u got night blindness" . ya shes kinda dumb . anyways . she cracks a joke and i use it as a jump pad to ask the question. i do it. "Hey, would u like to go on a date with me" (it didnt click that it we were in Bandra) she thinks i am joking so i ask her again with some serious eye contact. she being less honest and sweet. she goes with " But u can do so much better, why me, u can do better than me" like bro, chill the fuck out i just u out for a dated. i clear things out, i tell her what my intentions are. so theres some awkward silence. idk why are we still holding hands, now i am getting another anxiety attack coz shes not ready to let my hand go. we are near dry land , still holding hands, i am on the verge of another attack but then her girlie is near us, i take us near her , leave them together and i hop like a bunny and run(speed walk). ----- scene cuts to me and my friends in the rickshaw, having the most normal convo on this planet, as if i am holier than god. her, her girlie and a frnd of mine are in another rickshaw. cant imagine what happened there. -- ----- Day after that: she sorts things out with me. yep its a NO(i expected that). turns out, shes kinda in a situationship with Mr.6'2. idk y but i was really happy that she's happy with him. we keep this between us and like mature adults stay frnds (with inside jokes obviously). ----- cut to Christmas Party----- everybody's drunk except me coz i dont drink. i expected that i might have a roundtable discussion with the girlies but they had diff plans. Mr.Rum and his girlie are occupied with each other. others.. everybody else in the party.. literally everybody.. are bullying Ms.Alcohol coz Mr.6'2 was a toxic and terrible guy. didnt treat her right. and outta nowhere. the girlies start shipping me and ms.alcohol infront of everybody (maybe my secret is out). for the first time, i saw the girlies going against their leader (Ms.Alcohol). they were in my team, heck to prove it one of them started flirting with me.. another one said "only if u were a few inches taller i would ask u out". they fucking love me. they said they wanted me instead of Mr.6'2 with Ms.Alcohol. but they also said out loud that i deserve better. i just wanted to go out on a date, why am i part of drama. but i did feel bad for Ms.alcohol coz everybody was ganging up on her. her obsession with Mr.6'2 is her concern. coz everybody tried explaining her that he aint a good guy but all defence she had was "but he is 6'2" . cant say anything coz ppl have their preferences but damn this chick . but i feel bad for her, your own friends going against u is terrible. so ya. thats the story lesson learnt: some chicks are just crazy for tall guys Tldr: i ask a girl out, got rejected, went to a party everybody got drunk and her friends were on my team.