Just venting out because I feel too overwhelmed.

I graduated in late 2022. Soon after, my mom passed away. Pinne in 2023 oru varsham njn UPSC coaching inu poyi. Sathyam paranja, I dont remember anything I studied there. I used to study everyday diligently and all pakshe my brain fog was really bad. By 2024, I felt a little better. i was no longer crying myself to sleep everyday like last year. Chila central government examinte mains vere okke ethi. Pakshe onnintem final listil indayilla. Oru regulatory bodyku padichittu athu 10 markinu poyi. I will be 27 by early 2025. Ithu vare jooli illa kooli illa. Oru examum kittanilla. Alochikkumbo thanne bayangara sangadam. there are a few upcoming exams but I cant bring myself to study for any. I feel very numb and detached and dead inside. Mika divsaom last month I was like Pablo escobar sitting in a swing with arms on his stomach. other times I am like Jayaram in kadal kaattin nenjil. Njn sherikkum vichariche by the end of 2024, I would have a nice government job. ippo onnumillatha avstha aayi. I think I just wanted to share my veshamam with someone. If you made it till the end of my post, thanks for reading.