Last year I got 83%ile so I took drop,, this year I got 65.9 %ile. I m totally fucked up ,,

Last day mere kuch doston ka aur meri crush Ka message aaya ki kya aaya mera result ,,, me itna kudpe sharminda mehasos kr rha hun ki unka message seen hi nhi kiya h , 😭,, wo log college le chuke h , aur maine drop liya tha ki ache marks laa ke college jaunga ,, par ab to wo bhi sapna tutta hua lg rha h,, drop lekr bhi ab mujhe kisi tier 2 or 3 college me jaana pdega,, aur unka junior bnna padega 😖,, meri crush ka to message seen krne me hi sarm aaa rhi h mujhe pata nhi wo sab kya soch rhe honge ,, really im totally fucked up,, pata nhi ab college milega bhi ki nahi😑