School farewell jane se dar lag rha

So after some days their is my school farewell. I am very scared kyuki preparation chuddi hui hai. Also crush ke samne loser jaisa khada hona and teacher ke sath celebrate karne ka bhi man nhi karega cause I scored very low in pre boards I am not happy. Also their are my so called friends who bullied me in past and wo mere se better stage par hai so I would be traumatized. I am thinking of not going to farewell is it ok? Btw sorry for poor English ikr