RIP

hello guys this is my first post here , i discovered this reddit about a month ago , i am a 12thie, my exam is on 29 s1 and i am not prepared for it , i dont know how much will i score in this fking exam , i never wanted to prepare for it but since i love programming and am l am doing it from 11th grade , i got to know that if you love programming then iit / nit are the way to go . I am not feeling bad because i won't clear the exam but the fact that how will i face my parents is eating me . i am from a decent upper middle class family , my father gifted me an ipad and an apple watch few weeks ago and i told him 'papa yeh sab mat laya karo abb aur pressure aata hai' then he was like ' pressure mat le abhi mai zinda hun' . from that day i am crying every fking night like crazy . I never thought that i would ever give this much importance to a fucking overrated exam . but here i am today having suicidal thoughts . I am a hardcore krishna devotee , i dont know how i reached this mental state. prolly you'll read another suicide news. my parents think that I will do good in exams 😔