Poore 2 saal bas itna hi kiya

Am so done with me. Chem aur maths ka pucho bhi maat. Never wanted to do engg but parents kept only two options in front of me medical or engg. Bio mai khas interest nhi tha. Always thought ki parents atleast designing exam ka form tho bhi bharne denge so I was laid back thodi bohot padhai ki but wasted most of the time. Parents ko dhoka diya, unhe lagta tha study table pe baithke padhra hu but whereas mai bas pc pe timepass karta tha. Jo design exam ke bharose padhna chora vo form hi bharne nhi diya unhone. Am totally fucked right now. Syllabus kuch nhi hua still they are sending me to coaching to give full marks. They are really worried two saal padhke bhi kyu marks nhi aare. Literally scoring 30-40's vo bhi sirf phy ke bajese aare hai. Hell I prepared more for that design exam than jee. Vo bhi waste hogaya. Even getting in 100's feels like a dream now. Haroz plan banata hu ki aaj ye karunga kal vo,but I just end up wasting more time. Phir mock likhte waqt bohot regret hota hai ki khash padh liya hota tho aaj ye haal na hota. God am so fucked. Sorry for the rant.