My mom threatened me to death saying jaan le lungi teri.

Idk what happen my mom and dad are angry from yesterday. They ain't talking to me now coming to today evening, I was just poking my mom just like how a small child ask her mom to talk, she got so much furious I just said why are you making faces like golgappa She said krle jitna kr rhi hai krle agr teri agley me 15k rank ke andr nhi aayi to jaan le lungi. Yeah exact words. But I ignored it Hann mn me bahot rona aarha tha. But I was adamant to make her talk to me but then she got up and as I have tied my hair to unhone baal kheeche aur Fir ek thappad maara. Then she started saying many things too which I don't want to mention. No I didn't cried I was laughing because I know if I cried I will broke down in front of her and Will say many things. I scored decent in jan attempt but I won't be able to clear cutoff of general category. In morning I posted related to this in AITK sub. I didn't cry infront of her but now I'm in room and crying so so much even I can't breathe properly. Before exam she was saying don't worry about result and now acting like I'm shifty person. I am very suicidal. Just need a lil more courage nd she is giving I all in me to end my life. She even says she won't care even if I die. I don't know how will I score 99 percentile. I will surely end my life I don't want to live. I know it's my fault I didn't studied properly but do I really deserve this from my mom.🙃 This post is not for karma farming. I'm in real trouble and crying.