Muhe nhi pta life me kya kru 😭

M ek dropper hu..... aaj physics ka paper tha maine kuch nhi padha pichli baar bhi iss baar bhi improvement exam tha... mujhe lag rha h m fail ho jaunga physics me .... maa baap ko lag rha iss baar to iske 75+ aa hi jaenge ... pr kuch samajh nhi aa rha ... itna bura lag rha h andar se... jee mains me sirf 81 percentile aai h ... pichle saal 64 aai thi.... buri waali beimaani kri h maine ... saare rishtedaar aise dekhte h ki koi neech insaan aa gya phle jab ache no aate the tab tareef krte the .. maa baap ke liye bura lag rha h itni nalayak aulaad hu unki ... phle bhut bdiya no aate the school me maa baap ekdam garv se btate the mere baare me ... ab chup ho jate h ... mehnat hi nhi ho paati ache se .. plz m kya kru kuch samajh nhi aa rha agar is paper me fail ho gya to kaise no lagte h marksheet me nhi pta pichle saal paas tha physics me (57 percent aaye the 12th me)...kam se kam 60 percent chaitye 12th me pr compartment aa gyi improvement to dikkat ho jaegi agar aisa hua to kms hi aakri option h bhut rona aa rha h ... ek time pr bhut bdiya student hota tha bhut mehnat krta tha kr ab lallu ho gya hu .... kuch samajh nhi aa rha kaise kya kru 😭