Kya karu bata do

I am a dropper. Lst yr I got around 89%ile.this yr jan attempt I got 94.23%ile.But I worked hard and also gave my best and still I ended up with this. Mere jewaan ma abb koi motivation he nhi bacha. Mein aur kya karu ki ma 98+ la pau April attempt ma. I am from a lower middle class family and this thoughts and overthinking kills me every day. Even after waking up I feel like exhausted. Aur kya kru yrr... Aur nhi hota mere se