Its a DO or DIE MOMENT FOR ME, Please help.

35 days left till jee mains second attempt. Im a dropper, got 77%tile in mains 1. Idk what to do. Im just lost. Ive lost everything. Every aspirations, talents , confidence every fucking thing, ive lost. I dont wanna lose these 35 days. I wanna use them to make em fruitful. Im all up to work like a superhuman. I want 95%tile anyhow. I also have wbjee , comedk, iat, met, viteee. Please help. Please anybody please help. I want to do this. Any good advice would be apreciated? It really sucks being me. Ioqm qualifier, 94 in icse , to 77 in 12th and a fuckin dissapointment in jee even after a drop.