Did I really fuck up ?

Toh me abhi 11th me hu and 11th 1 month me khatam bhi ho jayega. Mujhe 10th me 94% mile the and us samay confidence me mene socha jee ki tayri start krte hai so mene 11th ka online batch le liya PW ka. Initial days me accha chalra tha 2 months ke liye.. fir uske baad se me bohat lightly lene laga and timepass bhi bohat hota raha padhne ki alawa bohat kuch krta tha.. Uski wajah se backlogs banna start ho gye.. Now I don't want to explain the whole shit but mera abhi 11th ka half of the syllabus ka backlog hai.. batch me already syllabus khatam ho chuka hai isi week me.. Bohat regret ho raha hai and kuch samj nahi aarah ki konsa subject kru and backlogs kese cover kru.. And aisa nahi hai ki me bohat he kharab student hu.. I have always been a good student (2nd or 3rd topper)but now I just fucked up my 11th grade and abhi itna self doubt horaha hai ki kya batauu.. Ghar wale bohat sare expectations lekar bethe hai.. Sometimes I think ki JEE mere liye nahi hai but at the same time in the back of my mind I think ki me kar lunga.. Ab ky kr sakta hu me?