Can jee guide your life

So,hi. Let's get it done as fast as possible as I don't have much time, I think. I was a topper since 11th class and I used to score 180-190 in almost every exam but recently my scores dropped to 70-80 in last 2 tests and I am feeling very low, my parents are saying ki mein dhang se nhi padh rha, dhang se padhega toh number toh aaenge hi nhi. Let me tell you truth, mein poora jor laga rha hu, ab itna jor laga chuka hu ki takat nhi bachi aur jor lagane ki. Ab mein thak chuka hu, nhi ho rha ab magar mere mummy papa ko kon samjhae. Now, I can relate the Kota suicides. Jee ek exam nhi h, jeetards ki poori zindagi h. Agar zara bhi lagta h na ki ab nhi hoga, poora aatmavishwas kho jata h. Yaar bachche ke dimaag mein vaise bhi 1000 tensions hoti h, uspe aur load daal do phir agar JEE nhi hua toh aaram se sab keh dete h ki isne padha nhi hoga aur agar usi bachche ka ho gya phir sab kahenge, humne toh dekha tha isko padhte hue. Ab mein yeh sab societal pressure + parental pressure + jee pressure, nhi seh sakta so... Over and out.