Am I dumb?

I am jee aspirant giving jee's first attempt on 22nd Jan I was never an outstanding kid but in mocks i always maintained an average between 140-160 and sometimes 170-180 But my parents never appreciated me much even if I gave my 100% I know I'll sound childish from here but please don't judge I lost my glasses which I thought was in my room but there not in the whole house and i remember wearing them But I have no idea where they are and they were a bit on the expensive side(they were about ₹1400-1500) And i literally got berated for that and i accept this is my fault but now I am recalling my whole life when I lost something and i found it in a different corner of the world