The college sucks

Standard rant? Yeah that's what it is. The college feels too overwhelming. It's lonely mostly kyuki most log busy hain. It's too competitive and the profs suck. When I did some courses of the 'non engineering departments' that's when I realised how bad the professors of my department actually were. I really wish I hadn't taken engineering. It's not that my parents asked me to do it, I did not know. I am getting tired day by day, I don't feel like doing anything, enthusiasm was ages ago. When I meet people I feel I'm constantly being judged for being a loser, and when I'm alone, well...I feel lonely;) I am constantly underperforming, I can do better but I don't want to, money is a motivation, but it just doesn't feel enough to pull me through, I constantly think about leaving this college, I'm rotting and it feels I can't do anything about it. I'll conclude it with the final lines by sahir ludhiyanvi Bhatak rahi hai khalon me zindagi meri Inhi khalaon me reh jaunga kabhi kho kar Mai janta hu, meri humnafas magar yuhi Kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai🚬