SOS

I don't want to end things for my self but then again I don't find anything worth living for. I failed as a son and as a bf. It's like everyone I ever loved just left me all alone and it hurts so damn much. I really need to talk to someone I guess it's my birthday today and I know how stupidly lonely I'm I tried ending things and my fan broke I failed in ending things for myself again THRICE. I'm sorry to edit this but I have to talk to someone I guess