Anyone above 25 and jobless? How’s life treating you?

I don’t know if this is a rant, a breakdown, or just me screaming into the void, hoping someone out there still feels things the way I do. I’m 25. Jobless for five months. My life? A slow-motion car crash. My sleep cycle is wreckedsleep at 5 AM, wake up at 8, barely human, just another machine running on fumes. Meals are an afterthought lunch at 3 PM, dinner at midnight, no water, no discipline, no purpose. My body is tired. My mind? Worse. And the scariest part? I’ve stopped recognising myself. I used to earn. ₹16K went to my family. Now? I contribute nothing. My parents don’t say anything, but I see it that quiet suffering, that wordless fear. They won’t ask, but I know the question lingers between every silence: *“Will he figure it out?”* And honestly? I don’t know. At first, I told people I lost my job. Thought they’d care. They didn’t. Not really. Turns out, if you stop moving, you disappear. Conversations feel like reruns, friendships dissolve like cigarette smoke. No one asks, *“How are you, really?”* Maybe that’s fair. Everyone’s drowning in their own mess. But damn, man. The silence? It’s deafening. Guilt. Fear. Loneliness. A cocktail of self-destruction that tastes worse every day. I know I should get up, fix my routine, hustle my way back into relevance. But there’s a gap between *knowing* and *doing*. And that gap? Feels like a never-ending, pitch-black void. Maybe it’s depression. Maybe it’s just weakness. But willpower isn’t enough it flickers, fades, dies. Discipline is key. But tell me, where do you even start when your own mind won’t cooperate? Some days, I feel like life is a massive staircase, and I’m just sitting on the first step, watching people climb. They don’t look back. They don’t even notice me. And that? That’s the scariest part. Not failure. Not rejection. But irrelevance. So tell me, is anyone else out there? Anyone who feels like their life is stuck while the world speeds past? How do you deal with the silence? How do you fight the fear of becoming nobody?