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I'm a high-school student right now working on course selections for next year. i have to pick some courses based on the few requirements of the programs and universities i'd like to get into, but i'd also need to pick more courses to fill in gaps as out of the 8 i have to pick only 4 are ones i'd need for my uni that i want to get into. I have picked something but its really stressing me out and i'm scared for the future. i've picked a type of program even in high-school that covers the next 4 slots for courses and i get experience in work field too. but i'm scared for my future, what if it doesn't work out? what if i can't find the right opportunity for that thing? or i don't get into the university still? or i wanna change that 4 period high-school program to another normal 4 separate classes if the program doesn’t work out and i can't change it back? to add to stress i have a disability too which adds a layer of challenge in everything. Generally i'm fine but at nights or such times i really fear the future, and trusting in Bhagwan is getting hard, i'd really like people's feedback on this please. its not just about me but i'd like to make my family proud and give them luxurious too. and i'm generally such a prosperous and happy kid now i'm feeling in-golfed even by jealousy of others's success or even fear of it. basically now I’m starting to fear because of a lot of risk factors. I always take opportunities. I can get an in fact people know me for that and call me quite intelligent and successful for my age. But still.