Family trying to manipulate me into being a Christian.

As the title says, my family are constantly trying to undermine my desire for Hinduism, make me feel stupid, gaslight me, and pretty much use any narcissistic tendency you can find to control my faith in God. I love, Krishna, Vishnu, Shakti, and all the Hindu Gods. I am deeply in love with Kali, she is so beautiful to my eyes. Every opportunity I have I share my love for Hinduism. Hinduism is so beautiful to me. As an artist, I take a great appreciation in beauty, Hinduism is the masterpiece, and that awe inspiring wonder among the world’s spirituality traditions. I went to my mothers house today, I was abused by her in the past, but I thought, hmm, well if I want to follow dharma, I ought to be loving to my friends and my enemies. I just learned about dharma recently. I had a coffee in my hand, sitting on the chair next to my mom. I relate to her my hopes for the future, seeking to share my joy with her and make her happy. As I relate everything about my dreams, she watches me with eyes dead like ice. The more I share with her, the less she says. She watches me like a cougar. As I wait, I realize she is judging me and my faith in Vishnu according to her narrow minded Christian thoughts. She dissects my heart, with her conservative based Christian hypocrisy, 50 years of experience in scrutinizing heretical ideas and condemning them to hell fire. I find myself naked, being judged in every way that makes me unique. Anyways…