Need Suggestions

Just a vent-out post. This isn’t my real account—just needed a space to let things out. I’m emotionally, mentally, and physically drained. I’m 23M and have almost everything that one would typically want at this stage good grades, a good job at a top-tier firm. But somehow, I never seem to get what I truly desire. It’s like if I ask for gold, I get a diamond instead—but never the gold—leaving my wishes unfulfilled. I’ve never had good friends or people in my life who genuinely cared for me. I’ve never been loved, apart from my parents. Every person I meet sticks around only as long as I keep putting in the effort. The moment I stop, they’re gone—like I never existed for them. Every time I get attached to someone, it ends up wrecking my mental and emotional peace. Maybe it’s time to change. Maybe I should stop being the nice one. Perhaps I should become that person who plays the game, who uses people just like they do ?????