It’s my birthday and I just realised the illusion of this city

Hi, I am 31M and it’s my birthday today. I took leave today to do something that makes me happy or atleast not work. I live alone in Gurgaon and have been living here since 2016. So today morning I got up and started planning if I should go to old delhi for the amazing food or go for a staycation nearby or organise a house party, multiple options running through my mind. Then I decided let me ask one of my friends and get a second opinion, maybe I can plan a party or if people are not free then do something alone. Picked up my phone and it’s then I went blank, I cannot think of a single person I can call in this city to have such casual discussions. I just realised all are collegues and the only time I speak to them other than work is office parties. Few of them who I befriended outside work I realised I have never chatted with them on whatsapp the only on call conversations I had with them was to coordinate a house party at my place rather just to have a place to drink on weekends (since I live alone). There is not one meaningful connection I have here. Before this realisation I was under the impression I have a lot of friends in Gurgaon and life is really happening for me. It’s like standing in the middle of an ocean yet not having a drop of water to drink.