I had a sleepless night, full of panic attack

Hello everyone To set the context I'm a 27M working in gurgaon in as a software developer. I live separately and don't live with my parents. I make around 14 LPA. Not being happy with my job I have recently started preparing for my GMAT and looking forward to take it in next 1 months. So I had a conversation with my parents last night and they started giving me BT about my career and my life in general. They started by saying that I shouldn't solely rely on GMAT and look for alternatives ( for them the only alternative is to join dad's business which I'm not interested in). They were of the opinion I'm ruining my life and wasting my precious years in chasing something that I might not be able to clear. Which has a decent high chance as I'm not scoring well on my mocks but still I want to give a honest chance to myself and try my best but they aren't understanding it and gaslighting me instead. They also bug me about not doing well in career and keeps reminding me I'm not earning enough. After this my mom started bugging me for marriage. Started saying I would not get a good match in AM setup as I don't earn well. Any good girl would not say yes to me because I don't earn enough and 14 lacs is very less. They think that If I join dad's business I can earn better and they can find me a better match. The thing is I don't want to join this family business. Maybe I might earn better but this is something I'm not comfortable doing and they keep poking me everytime. Not just that but it ruins my entire confidence in life. I feel not being capable of anything. They guilt trip and curse me for not being able to find a good job and not settling in life this late in my 20s. This used to happen earlier also, for a brief amount of time I had no job as I was in a transition phase while leaving my old job and not being able to find anything new. This time my mom kept bugging me and reminding me that I am not good enough and no one would give me a job because I'm talented enough. This has now taken a huge toll on me. This happens every month. By the time I recover from one incident it's already time for our next flight. Now yesterday I couldn't sleep for a minute and in anger broke my earbuds too. I've been crying in my room and getting sucidal thoughts. I really don't know how to handle this situation. I really don't have enough time and bandwith to visit a therapist. Moreover I don't know if it will even help me get out of this situation.