Need help

i am a dropper for jee. and fir bhi nhi nikla. i havent had taken coaching when i was in 11th and 12th, only took in drop. 1st attempt ke baad bohot sad hogya tha hafte bhar. and right now kuch bhi nhi horaha h. uthke pad nhi para hu. Kuch smjh nhi ara h aur na hi pehle jaisey mehnat kuch nhi horha. i fear ki aisey hi chlne wala h . mujhme jaan bilkul nhi arhi ki beth ke pad lu.. Please aisey situation me kya karna chahiye?