The recent Vishavjot saga made me realise that I'm no different

Okay, that was actually clickbait, I am different, for starters, I don't cheat. But basically this particular cheater was caught after suspicion arose after looking at his progress graph which started in 2023, and in just 200 games grew from 900 to 2000, there was no dip in his graph only vertical progress. This made me curious to look at my own graph and lo behold it was almost exactly the same story, started in 2023, 900 rated, grew to current rating in about 200 games, no dip only vertical. And why is that? Well I realised, I'm scared of losing, so I've been levelling myself up before I play and whenever I feel like I've reached my peak, I stop playing for weeks or months to level myself up to come back again. I play a lott of unrated games and I play on a lot of different places but I hold my main chesscom account rating in such high regard that I can't watch it go down, it has to always go up which would explain my much higher win percentage (70%). I don't know if this mentality is healthy or not but it is what it is. 'Hemlock2300' if anyone wants to do the procedure like Pale Investigator.