Burnout is a real thing

All my life I worked hard or perhaps forced to work hard. My parents were never content with my performance. I was always pushed to the edge to satisfy their expectations on me. I seemed like a promising kid. Until, recently, I kinda fell in a depressive state. To be honest, I was indeed experiencing the symptoms of it for about 5 years but deep inside my heart doesn't want to believe. You know why? Because I am a hard worker and talented. That's what I think of myself, irrespective of the truth. When I say that I am not well physically and mentally, people doesn't want to believe it. They never even bother to hear it. They say it's all in my head and I had to hustle unless I am okay being stamped by others. Perhaps they are true or perhaps they are not. Whenever I miss a milestone they set for me to cross on time, I am being tagged as a looser. Truth is stranger than fiction. No one will love you until you are accomplished. I repeat no one. I think I understood it sooner than an average person here. I never expected it would be like this when I grew up. What still helps me hang in here is not my parents or friends or the society. The entire credit goes to the little me who had a lot of dreams for herlsef and wanted to experience each of it when she grows up. I don't want to disappoint here by hurting myself. I totally wish not to. PS : Definitely not related to the sub but I am still posting it here since Chennai is close to my ehart no matter where I go.