Trying to Find Myself Again

I’m 20, studying computer science engineering, and honestly, I’ve been feeling kinda stuck. Life isn’t bad or anything, I like cooking, reading non-fiction, and working on coding projects. But it feels like something’s missing, you know? Like I’ve lost a part of myself. I used to be so curious about everything. I’d spend hours just reading random books, playing table tennis, or exploring things that caught my interest. But somewhere along the way, that spark faded. I think it started when I got obsessed with JEE. My parents didn’t even care much about it, it was all me. I thought cracking it would mean something big. When I didn’t do as well as I wanted, I told myself it’s fine. But now, in this private university, I feel like I’m still stuck in that competitive mindset. Always comparing myself, always thinking if I’m doing “enough.” It’s like I forgot how to just enjoy the small things or be curious without a reason. I’m trying to change that, though. I’ve started reading books that I *want* to read, not just ones that feel “useful.” Cooking meals that make me happy. Working on coding projects just because they’re fun, not because they’ll look good on my resume. Some days, it feels like I’m getting somewhere. Other days, not so much. Do you guys feel this way too? Like life’s become a grind and you’re just trying to find your way back to the person you used to be? If you’re working on it, how are you doing it? Let’s share, I feel like we could all help each other out.