Idlyai Thedi Oru Payanam

Hi guys! I am one of those IT professionals who got seperated from their home town. I have been here in Chennai for 5 years(4 years clg). Here I am going to share my emotions as I am travelling towards my hometown for Pongal holidays. "Here I am... Going to my sondha ooru for pongal.... From Kilambakkam to Attur.. It's been hours since the journey has been departed... The journey is tiring... I ain't feeling well, my face feels heavy, eyes are hot with mild headache. I have covered my ears with muffler. Got a feeling that I'd get fever anytime soon.... Yet I sat by the window in bus... Cuz I thought I'd get to watch the sun set amongst the tiny rural villages on the sides of the road... I caught glimpses of a little boy in skl uniform yelling and cycling waving a bye at me. My tired eyes gathered it's last bit of energy to brighten me up to wave back at him with joy. A man was feeding a stray dog "Tiger biscuits" in a lonesome bus stand near vikravandi. A petti kadai with only one night brightens that place up. I am not sure where am I currently in my journey... All I know is my heart isn't settled yet... Longing.... Searching for something... Listening to songs didn't help... Scrolling down reddit neither.... I try to look around me... And observe things unveil at it's own pace... It gives me peace.... I thought about how I was going to spend the entire next week in my home.... Ottada adikanum, karumbu vaanganum, veetuku vella adikanum... I rarely come out of home for anything.... Unless to buy milk on behalf of my mum... She is quite relieved when she has someone to do that.... In fact I saw her more happier when I tell her, "Enga ma pora... Paal vaanga thana, Iru nan vangitu varan" than the day I bought her washing machine with my salary.... It's not about how we think doing big things would make the people loved, but even the silliest things which brings the innocent smile out of them... I guess so... The wind is slapping through my face... I wish to sleep.... In that "Kayithu kattil" infront of a house I saw an hour back surrounded my beautiful farm with a motor set and a well nearby. Whenever I cross a house during my travel, I think of their family. The kind of life they would be living. What could be the dinner in their home. Will they be expecting the arrival of their husband/son/daughter? Like they been expecting me in my home? Whether they and I could have a similar family or financial problems. It always pulls me back to the fact that life is simple and beautiful.... One just has to figure it out... To live in a way he likes... Ughhh... My throat is paining a bit.... And I could sense the smog on the roads since I can only see the headlights of vehicles surrounded by it... I wish they would stop the bus and let me down.... I would just love walk my way to my home... (100+ kms to go) Immersing myself with this solitude... The cold wind... Flashing lights... Sleeping villages... Breezing air.. Dancing trees.... Everything is moving at a slow pace... I wish they'd let me to immerse myself in this beauty..... I wish this commute ends soon.. So that I'd catch last 1 am bus for Keeripatti. My brother would be waiting for me to pick me up in our scooter.. When I go home, mummy would be there awake. She told me she has prepared idly with thakkali chutney. Enough to activate my taste buds now itself. So I am travelling past little cars.... Big trucks... Majestic mountains... Zebra painted bridges... Lighting temples... Lonely midnight bakeries... Towards that idly...❤️"