Feel lost in life...19 ki Umar mein zindagi khatm hone ko hai socha apne community se share karun

Long story short 11-12 aur 1st drop pcb se waste kar diya...ab ek aur drop le rha hu taaki next year maths additional ka paper deke kisi college se btech cse kar lu...main andar se mar chuka hu...sota hu zyada taaki maut ka ahsas ho sake...i fear I'll be a disappointment forever bcz of being mediocre...mere jivan se zyada aasha nahi buss 3-5 lpa kama ke Shanti se jivan basar krna chahta hu...parents kuch nahi bolte par main andar se khokla ho chuka hu...koi baat krne ko nahi socha apne logon se Zahir karu