Need advice: Struggling with family pressure and mental health while pursuing my PhD

Hi everyone, I’m 24 years old, currently pursuing a PhD in Computer Science at a college 30 km away from home. I wanted to share my story and seek advice on how to handle my situation. During my placements in [M.Tech](http://M.Tech), I couldn’t participate due to an arrear. My college had great placement opportunities, and most of my peers got placed. Unfortunately, I didn’t, which deeply disappointed my mother. She started scolding me daily, urging me to find a job. I applied on company websites and LinkedIn, but nothing worked out. To make things worse, neighbors and relatives started questioning my family about my future, which intensified the pressure on my mom. Under societal pressure, she began harassing me emotionally. She called me names, body-shamed me, and said things like, *“I wish you weren’t born,”* and, *“You’re a disgrace to the family.”* Over time, this broke my mental state. Desperate, I took a low-paying job (₹13k/month) at a relative’s small designing company in Bangalore. The job had no career growth, and my pride wouldn’t let me settle for it. I quit after a week and came back home, but the cycle of emotional abuse continued. I don’t want to paint my mother in a bad light—she’s a good person at heart, but the pressure from society and relatives has changed her behavior. However, the constant fights have strained our once-close relationship. I’ve always dreamed of pursuing a PhD and becoming a professor. Teaching is my passion, but my mom disapproves, as she associates the teaching profession with being “middle-class.” She wanted me to pursue an MS in the US, but I wasn’t mentally strong enough to make that decision. Coming from a middle-class family, I’d also need a loan for it, which added to my hesitation. Eventually, I applied for a PhD at a college where my uncle (my mom’s brother) works as a professor. I got selected and borrowed money from my sister to pay the fees, as my parents refused to support me financially. Even after joining the PhD program, my mom’s ridicule continued. She frequently body-shames me (I’m 175 cm tall and weigh 85 kg), calling me “disgusting” and criticizing my appearance. When I speak up, she plays the victim, and my father and sister ask me to stay quiet. This constant suppression has made me fearful of expressing myself. Over time, I’ve stopped being the talkative person I once was. I’m silent most of the time now, and while my mom occasionally talks to me lovingly, the cycle of abuse inevitably starts again. I’m emotionally drained and starved for affection. On the academic front, my uncle is pressuring me to write 6–7 research papers within three years, which feels overwhelming and unrealistic. I feel trapped between family pressure, emotional abuse, and academic stress. I’m considering moving out to regain some control over my life and mental health. Does anyone have advice on how to handle this situation?