Anyone that lives abroad feel lost in their life ?

I had moved aboard many years ago as a child but now that I'm an adult in 20s I still feel lost than ever before. Everyday I miss my country and my childhood friends and family. Whenever I see their posts on Whatsapp and Instagram it just makes me feel like wow they are living a way better life than I am. They have earned so much respect in society and became financial and socially wealthy. Which I feel like many people take that important for some reason because of social reputation. Most of childhood also moved abroad and they have high paying jobs because of completing their education. Even parents are happy and proud. They all did the typical tradition of what a child is expected to do to fulfill parents expatiation. Such as securing a high paying job and marriage then starting your own family. I'm living without friends and guidance in life. I'm not going to college because I don't know what degree to pursue. I also realized I'm not good at academics in first place nor do I have the willpower to make something in life. I'm struggling to overcome basic fears like getting a job and driving. It's so stupid of me that I'm allowing years of anxiety shame and fear control me. I'm so mentally overwhelmed.