A girl slapped me in public..I am feeling very terrible and ashamed. What should I do?

I don’t even know how to process what just happened. I was walking in a crowded area with one of my college mate. He pushed me just forward just as a joke and then I accidentally tackle a girl. The moment I realized, I panic and was about to apologize. But instead of hearing me she slapped me. Hard. In front of everyone and told me that people like me are the reason women feel unsafe..and many other things. She slapped me few more times..really hard.. I just stood there, frozen. People were staring, probably laughing inside, and I could feel my face burning not just from the slap but from the pure humiliation. I didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. I’ve always been a shy, antisocial person, and now this just makes me want to disappear completely. But here’s the worst part—this isn’t even about the slap. It’s just the final confirmation of something I’ve known deep down for a long time: I am always the one who gets hurt. Every woman in my life has left a scar. My bullies in school? All girls. My own mother? Never once showed me real love. Even my so-called “friend” hurt me in a way I never expected. And now a total stranger, without even a second thought, felt like it was okay to hit me in public like I was nothing. I know it was wrong of me that I tackled her it's my mistake. I shouldn't have done it..but..but..I am feeling very terrible...how should I get better?