Break up

Had break up in 2021 it was 8month of relation ship i was really attracted to her she was all i got in college (i am still in college its an intergrated course) after that she ditched me idk why her eyes was soo soo soop good i got 2proposal after that but i rejected them still i think about her i dont know what should i do i want to move on but she messes with my mind still . Idk…